Quote Originally Posted by Parasurama
I over-analyze people until I stop finding them interesting.

I feel I am doomed to be unsuccessful in every endeavor that I undertake for two reasons. First, I do not actually want to be successful, at least by the traditional definition of success. My definition of success is having enough resources to get by while actually doing nothing. The problem with this mindset is that my intense desire to just do nothing will always prevent me from getting to a position where I can.

Second, and this may be related to the first, I am not willing to step past my own ethical bounds in order to increase the likelihood of my own success. For example, I think that it is wrong for an applicant to get letters of recommendation from people who don't truly know them well. Thus I cannot ask for a recommendation from a professor who I haven't actually made an impression on. I also think that it is wrong to try to get to know someone unless you have a genuine interest in that person. This is completely paralyzing because I am not genuinely interested in getting to know any of my professors.
this is pretty much exactly how I feel. When I was in culinary school, the school would host "meet and greets." Which I always found to be really transparent and disturbing. Like... you walk around and talk to a bunch of people, not because you want to talk to them, but because they have something you want (employment and/or internships.) Its like speed dating but worse because the object is monetary, not sexual or emotional.