I over-analyze people until I stop finding them interesting.

I feel I am doomed to be unsuccessful in every endeavor that I undertake for two reasons. First, I do not actually want to be successful, at least by the traditional definition of success. My definition of success is having enough resources to get by while actually doing nothing. The problem with this mindset is that my intense desire to just do nothing will always prevent me from getting to a position where I can.

Second, and this may be related to the first, I am not willing to step past my own ethical bounds in order to increase the likelihood of my own success. For example, I think that it is wrong for an applicant to get letters of recommendation from people who don't truly know them well. Thus I cannot ask for a recommendation from a professor who I haven't actually made an impression on. I also think that it is wrong to try to get to know someone unless you have a genuine interest in that person. This is completely paralyzing because I am not genuinely interested in getting to know any of my professors.