On the last thing, it sounds like you're trying to identify the exact cards a villain is holding before they show them to you. That's an unreasonable standard, and you'll only stress yourself out with it.

Remember, you're not trying to beat villain's hand at any time. You're only trying to beat their range. When they bet, they could have the goods, or it could be a bluff. You can't know. All you can know is roughly how often it's value and how often it's bluff.

You're never really putting them on a bluff or a value hand. You're only gauging how much of their range is value vs. bluff in any situation.

Just because they're value-betting doesn't mean they're ahead, either. Maybe they value bet AK OOP on a paired board when you hit trips. Just because they're value-betting against your range, doesn't mean they're ahead in the hand. Same goes for you.

When we talk pot odds, and we do a calc. we're not trying to put villains on exact hands and only call when we're ahead.
Let's say the pot odds are 25% and you think you have 30% equity. You call. Even though you expect to lose 70% of the time, you call.

That's how you make money in poker. Not by somehow magically knowing when they have the 70% and when they have the 30%.
Don't kick yourself over the outcome of any single hand. It's barely relevant.


What's important is things like where you said

I plan on getting off once Im burnt out
That's a huge lesson to learn.
No one does their best work when they're dead tired, or pissed off.
When you're not at full mental capacity, you cannot hope to outsmart people in a game based on observation and reaction.