Nah, I´m not saying I´d turn her down, that´d be a lie. There´s just this weird gap between what I find "aesthetic" and what satisfies my rules for sexual attraction. I usually generate a strange feeling of guilt when I violate the aesthetic standards. Don´t know why this is, maybe because I´m applying hopeless weight standards mainly to myself and from there to others as well. I clearly am not always congruent in what I think turns me on and what actually does.