Thank you.

We went to see the car today. The only thing that saved me was my size.

Today was our 1 1/2 yr anniversary.

Life is fucking gay as shit sometimes, and the last 6 days has been a huge roller coaster. In December, Justin and I lost our unborn child, and he was getting me through that. Or well, we were getting each other through that, but he was hiding his pain because he didn't want me to feel bad.


One thing I'm going to say to everyone as maybe some advice or just a word of little wisdom. Don't get so caught up in the bullshit arguments or petty disagreements. When you love someone - communicate, even the tiny things matter, make them smile even when you're sad, and laugh together. Do stupid, silly shit that other people would look at you both like you've lost your minds. But do it, and enjoy it, because it will matter more than you'll think. Doing all that with Justin has gotten me through these shit moments where I don't even know how to breathe. We never went to bed angry, hell we weren't angry at each other pretty much ever. Cuddle, hug, and kiss. Hold hands. Dance. The shit you don't think matters, matters.