Basically I'm posting this to punish myself because I can't believe how retarded I am. This is easily the biggest mistake I've ever made playing poker and brings up a lot of my mental game leaks.

PokerStars - $0.50 PL (9 max) - Holdem - 8 players

SB: $56.20 ----- 13/11 (53 hands)
BB: $40.00
UTG: $72.05
UTG+1: $20.70
MP: $53.45
MP+1: $56.90
CO: $75.50
Hero (BTN): $53.80

SB posts SB $0.25, BB posts BB $0.50

Pre Flop: ($0.75) Hero has 7 8

fold, UTG+1 calls $0.50, fold, fold, fold, Hero raises to $2.00, SB calls $1.75, BB calls $1.50, UTG+1 calls $1.50

Flop: ($8.00, 4 players) K K 5
SB checks, BB checks, UTG+1 checks, Hero bets $4.50, SB calls $4.50, fold, fold

Turn: ($17.00, 2 players) 6
SB bets $9.50, Hero calls $9.50

I feel like his range is pretty much face up {66-55,AKs,AhQh,AhJh,KJs+,AKo,KQo} which we have 22.55% against we need 26.39% raw equity to call. I feel like if a 4 or 9 falls we have great implied odds if a heart falls I think we are still getting paid some of the time or at least he calls small bet if he checks to us.

River: ($36.00, 2 players) 9
SB bets $14.50, Hero raises to $37.80 and is all-in, SB calls $23.30

I took second here to think if i can valuebet vs his range of {66-55,AKs,AhQh,AhJh,KJs+,AKo,KQo} 69.23% equity so I did.


villain shows: J K Gin!

The pot starts shipping towards the villain and I'm like wtf??! look back at the board and the river is the 6

Couldn't believe it, I felt sick to my stomach. I had a full day of uni like 730-5 out of the house, got a coffee come home feeling alright started grinding. This pretty much makes me never want to play after a long day. I think I have some tilt problems with relative hand strength when I'm tired, angry or frustrated, "I haz cowboys preflopz i cannot foldz now" I think I might try play some sessions and make myself wait 10 seconds before every time i make a post flop decision or something. Anyway please flame away