I am just so emotionally tired right now from getting speared every time I sit down.

note: not mentally tired -- I feel like I'm making the right calls and thinking quickly. I know that my level of play will make money over the long term. But Emotionally tired. Pessimistic about whether the long term will ever get here.

For example, here's the latest news -- this isn't a bad beat story or anything, so bear with me.

I get KK on the button and raise like a good boy. Sure enough I flop a third K. And bet and get a caller. On the turn, the board pairs threes and now I'm more or less unbeatable. I go to put in a bet

And my computer is frozen. Jammed up. Reboot. Lose. That kind of thing.

This is emotionally tiring. Having waited for those kings. And folded kings many times when things weren't going well for them. etc.

Plus have I mentioned the freerolls?