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There is a part of me that wants to keep this thread open and allow the abuse to continue. I also have the option of moving it to the bad beats (now "Tilt") forum and leaving a redirect, which achieves a similar aim while making it look like I'm a better moderator than the first option. However, I'm going to lock this, wish the OP the best of luck, and ask for his e-mail in case I ever get a PDF copy of the Elements of Poker. I suggest that the OP reads that, and checks out Tommy Angelo that link which is Tommy Angelo's blog. If you click the mindfulness link on the right, then you'll get a lot of encouragement and help from the pain that this part of poker causes.
Again, best of luck.
