ive havent been this mad in many years. yea i lost a shitload of money in poker today but i dont care so much about that. i'm way past getting mad over money swings. i'm mad about some shit that someone else did to directly fuck up my life plans in the next year. i cant do what i wanted, which is gonna make people disapointed in me because i trusted the person that fucked up. i'm super mad, which is only a big deal because i'm not used to being mad at all. i only deal with it by getting super drunk and thats probably bad too......but here i am. i hate saying this because i hate when people see me as someone to blame my faults on other people, but the fact is my close family and some friends are not gonna be happy because of the way someone misled me.

because of all this i need your help. post something that will make me less mad. if you cant think of anything, post whatever makes you less mad. im pissed, help however you can think. god dammit