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A bankroll of 500 to Zero.
Hey everyone 
I've been playing online at Paradise for the last month or so, trying to figure out this whole online poker craze. I started at the lowest limit there ($2 nl micro tables), with a deposit of $100. Actually I first started on Party, and lost a few $50 deposits just trying to learn the online game.
I didn't find too much success at the $2 tables, for the same reasons most people complain about (people call too much and get lucky). So I moved up to the $10 NL tables, only to find pretty much the same situation.
To $25 NL I go! Okay, so I'm breaking even here on the 25 NL tables for about a week or so, and decide to try my hand at some $10 SnG buyin tournies. I had some success here, finishing ITM a good percentage of the time, but still finding that I was getting knocked out early alot of times as well.
Being the impatient fish that I am, I decide to buy in to a $50 SnG, with hopes of winning BIG money! FIRST PLACE! $250. Man am I happy with this. I can continue buying in to these big buyin SnGs and get paid off huge! Wrong. After losing about 5 $50 tournies in a row I decide maybe I got ahead of myself, and I'll drop back down to the $10 tournies.
Only now, I'm losing big, finishing ITM maybe 1 out of 10 tournies that I buy into. Okay, maybe SnG isnt for me, back to the cash games.
I'm getting frustrated with the $25 NL tables, still breaking even, and sometimes even losing BR over the course of a few days. So I decide, "I'm going to play a $100 NL cash game!"
My first 100 NL game... I Quadruple up to $400. I'VE FOUND MY GAME! The second game I buy into, I triple up to $300. Finally, real players that I can bluff out of pots!
So my bankroll is topping at about $570 now, and I'm already feeling like Sklansky with a hard-on. I'll just camp these 100NL tables and get paid off. Needless to say, after losing my buyin at the next 10 tables I join, I decided I got ahead of myself again (a common tale I'm sure). I'm back down to about $170 now, so I move back to the dreaded $25 NL tables.
Only this time, I'm getting hammered. The players seem to have improved ten fold on these tables and are absolutely demolishing me every single hand that I decide to play. A set? You lose to a straight. Straight? Didn't see that BACKDOOR FLUSH coming, did you?
Werddown, just bet big when you make your hand... dont let them out draw you! So I bet harder. And I lost that much harder 
Ten minutes ago my bankroll reached $5 and I came to this forum which I've used to better my gameplay, and decide to make this post, as a cry for help.
I REALLY DO NOT WANT TO QUIT. I know it's just my foolish newbie poker sense telling me "This is impossible! No matter how good I play, I cannot win! Poker is all LUCK!". And I know most players have been there before.
So help me obi wan kanobi. You're my only hope. Please make any suggestions you can as to how I can get over this losing hump and start seeing some return on my investment.
Am I playing at the WRONG place? Is paradise packed with WSOP winners just camping the lower tables? Or am I playing the wrong game? Too inexperienced to expect to win? I know its foolish to think that I should be a winning player with only a couple months of experience under my belt, but I really DO feel like I'm playing good poker. I've read a couple of poker books, have a few friends that have a few years of online experience that I talk to and play with, discussing every hand that I can. I feel like I have good understanding of the game.
I just don't understand how to WIN at the game.
I'm sorry if this sounds like a fish ranting and complaining, but it's really not. It's a cry for help. I need some old wise man in the mountains insight to get me remotivated to put my next $100 into the game, tell me where I should put it (what program), and tell me how this happens to everyone.
You read that entire thing? You really ARE bored!
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