Right now I'm reaching a point where I need to make a decision, and I don't know what to do. I'm going to make SNE. The problem is, I don't know what I'm going to do once I actually get it. Am I going to grind my ass off for the first 6 months, then kick back and enjoy the good life like I've so planned? That's sort of been my life plan since the beginning. 2009 is going to be the year of travel, the year of fun. 2008 is the year of work, and the year of the grind. (Sounds like a Chinese calendar)

But in 2009 if I just grind till my SNE status is gone, then I'm left sitting somewhere in the middle. I would have all these points, and be just close enough to SNE to perhaps give it another go. That's the trap that Stars lays out, the rake vortex they're trying to suck me (all of us, really) into.

So should I go for it again? There's been times this year when I just feel like my time could be better spent elsewhere, but I needed to play to keep up. The money is nice. At the same time, time itself is invaluable. I don't know.