[I left my card at home because I iz disciplined so I lost 4 BIs and returned home in taxi, spending loads more money to retrive card to then spend the rest of money if need be, but it's okay because I was going to play perfect poker and ran good therefore it was a dsiciplined plan]
You are a slave to money and the feelings thst it creates within you as you gain or lose it.
You're so so so results orientated that it's just plain wrong. Unless you spend more time sorting out your fucked up mentality and relaising what variacne is and getting a little bit of respect for how chance/edges/poker actually work, the old fashioned tilty blow up is completely inevitable. It will happen sooner or later, it's just a matter of time.
Basically the behaviours you describe in yourself reflect the exact same undisciplined hopless mind that stopped you from ever making any progess online. You've just ran well enough so far not to get punnished for them or feel the negative reinforcement of your crappy emotionally driven, illogical choices.
This sounds very harsh but it's totally true. I find this very entertaining and really hope you succeed, but shit man, you're a walking time bomb, very dillusional and extremely likely to fail unless you spend WAY WAY more time on your emotions and learn how to stop being a slave to your every degen impulse.
Ambition is fucking great, but you're trying to dig up gold with a rocket launcher and are going to blow the whole lot to shit unless you refine your tools. Ambition alone is never enough, you need either: poker genius, discipline, logical planning, or immense amounts of luck to succeed. You have none of the first three and probably not the fourth. Some total tards do swing their hammers in the dark and occassionaly strike it lucky through utter run good (take Jamie Gold for example) but most, thought determined and full of beans, just smash themsevles in the face.
TURN THE FUCKING LIGHTS ON BEFORE THIS HAPPENS. JFC. All the warning signs are totally obvious yet you are completely blinded by your run good and unable to see them.
Ohh and FWIW guys, encouraging a guy to continue on an evidently flawed path just because it entertains you is immoral and moronic.
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