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OK, so it's been long as hell before I updated this bad boy...and a LOT has happened during that time. I never really got to post my August graph...but later late than never (if this was a shitty graph, I definitely wouldn't have just "remembered" to post it):

Yeah, I know, it's late. I don't care though.
Anywho, as I may have said earlier in this thread, I was going to withdraw to pay off my credit cards and kill the interest I am constantly paying every month. Obviously the cashout curse hit me and I went on a major downswing (reasoning to be quasi-explained later). With my smaller bankroll and my downswinging, I chose to move down to 25NL (which I am currently at). I wanted to regain my confidence. I lost about four buy-ins, was breakeven for a while, and dug myself out of that hole and currently trying to salvage the month. And that's where I stand.
***DISCLAIMER: BITCHING TO FOLLOW***
[BITCHING]As for the whole doctor thing I was going through, I finally told my mother it just wasn't going to work out. I simply didn't want to do it and I had to explain it to her. I am currently attending school to start a computer science major. She seems disappointed, but she accepts it. [start the "doesn't get along with brother" theme of this thread] My brother, on the other hand, is being pretty ignorant and closed-minded about the whole thing. He's worried I'm not going to find a job and doesn't understand how I'm going to live with such a "small" salary. He honestly, TRULY thinks money equals happiness. That TILTS the crap out of me...
Here's some background for my next little anecdote. My brother was basically my best friend until the age of seven. At that point, I guess he became a teenager (he was 13) and totally forgot about me. I was basically neglected and he would even sometimes make fun of me in front of his friends. He began to verbally abuse me for everything I did. Two remarks that stick out are: "Why do you walk/talk like that?" The funny thing is, I walk and talk like everybody else does...but somehow my brother found the way I do it to be "weird, idiotic," etc. (For future reference to those still reading, don't make fun of the way a person walks, talks, or anything else they cannot help, especially at a young age) I almost felt as if everything I did was wrong, even though I gave the effort to do it right. It got to the point where I avoided speaking or being by him; it's been like this for years. Our relationship is currently broken beyond repair. To this day, the verbal bashing he used to give affects me a bit (especially if somebody comments on my doing something ridiculously wrong when I am giving a conscious effort). Anywho, today my brother made me feel like I was some kind of weirdo again. Basically ruined my day.
Additionally, tonight I was grinding with renewed confidence and feeling good. My brother walks in, tilts the shit out of me, and I had to end my session. I lost three stacks in the process...but I can't blame that on the tilt. They were mere coolers (OK, one was due to tilt), but losing my buy-ins and having to deal with my brother tilted the shit out of me. Session ended early, I'm pretty pissed off, and I want to move out of this house. I seriously don't get along with him and it's made me a miserable person towards others (my social life is on a downswing btw). When he was studying in DR, I was much more pleasant. Now that he's back home, I'm a lot more irritable towards my mom and others. I want to get out, but now that I'm going back to school, it's just not financially feasible. *shrugs* I'll figure something out.
Why am I telling random internet peoples this? It's easier to get these kind of things off your chest on a blog that is yours. Also, this is basically an anonymous outlet. Nobody I know IRL reads this or will ever read this. I've always found telling people my problems a sign of weakness and I never really want to bother people with my problems (I'm also afraid people won't care or disregard it...this is probably something else due to my brother).[/BITCHING]
Anyway, I guess I feel a bit better after writing all this. I'm gonna get my ass to sleep and hopefully be fresh for school tomorrow. LATER!
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