You are too hard on yourself. Don't forget that poker is supposed to be fun! (I think)

Sometimes I think that fewer females play poker (than men) because we are just way too emotional about everything. Like we just get so upset when things go badly. Although maybe this is just an excuse so that I can blame my tilt on something else...

What's your PhD focus? Sounds like it's environmental science, which I wish I studied more back when I was in school. Good luck!