It's more than likely true that you are indeed a terrible player. Your post itself implies that you have very little understanding of the game itself. Fear not tho, there's still hope. Most of us came to this site terrible players. A lot of us have gone from terrible to not so terrible in just a few short years. Some of us have even graduated to being just plain bad players while others have actually gotten pretty good. Admitting that you suck is the first step.

Now that you know you suck there are a few things you can do about it, coming to this site is an excellent choice if you're trying to get better. You have work to do tho. Your first assignment is to find the hand history and copy paste it in this thread, someone will convert it for you. Go.