Over the last ten years I've had issues with depression and poker is the worst thing you can play when you're struggling with mental health. Every time I got a bad beat, it would upset me, I would feel like God hates me and wants me to suffer. I don't even believe in God but this is what I would think. I was nowhere near my A-game and very prone to tilt. So I had to stop playing for a long time.

I don't play as often as I used to for another reason - I'm not as good as I used to be. Maybe it's because I'm largely playing for entertainment these days instead of trying to grind a bankroll, I'm less inclined to make hero folds. But I enjoy poker more when I'm not bothered about losing. I'm better mentally now so I no longer feel downtrodden, and I'm working now so am more financially secure.

Also, playing fro crypto kind of makes it feel less real. Not sure why.