Noones telling you not to post this stuff in your op, what we're saying is that if what you're posting is whats going on in your head, then you're putting yourself into a bad place for trying to be a winning player. If you've read through my op you'll see I also struggle with letting my results rule my emotions at times (and it has a bad effect on me, and I dont think it affects me as much as you).

Thats worth repeating so it sinks in. The posts telling you to stop the negative posts arent telling you to stop whinging/venting/whatever, they're letting you know that unless you can control your emotions better, being a long term winner at poker will be unlikely.