Here is a graph since last Thursday:


Shot at 2007-08-01

I have played 20k hands since Sunday and have lost 20 BI's , and 25 since last Thursday. I run like complete crap every day. This is my last hand from July(I know the date is 08/01, but I started this table before 12:00, so it is my last in my DB):

POKERSTARS GAME #11249256848: HOLD'EM NO LIMIT ($1/$2) - 2007/08/01 - 04:34:16 (ET)
Table 'Antonia II' 6-max Seat #4 is the button
Seat 1: MrteddyKGB ($704.60 in chips)
Seat 2: Devriesimo ($227 in chips)
Seat 3: DaveMacD ($170.40 in chips)
Seat 4: Jager244 ($211.85 in chips)
Seat 5: akman111 ($116.80 in chips)
Seat 6: dolla$time ($366.05 in chips)
akman111: posts small blind $1
dolla$time: posts big blind $2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to Jager244 [Qd Qc]
MrteddyKGB: folds
Devriesimo: raises $6 to $8
DaveMacD: calls $8
Jager244: raises $24 to $32
akman111: folds
dolla$time: folds
Devriesimo: raises $195 to $227 and is all-in
DaveMacD said, "yeah kick his butt" <-----------------------note the animosity towards me, he says I take his money all the time...
DaveMacD: folds
Jager244: calls $179.85 and is all-in
*** FLOP *** [3c As 7c]
*** TURN *** [3c As 7c] [Ac]
*** RIVER *** [3c As 7c Ac] [8c]
*** SHOW DOWN ***
Devriesimo: shows [8h 8s] (a full house, Eights full of Aces)
Jager244: mucks hand
Devriesimo collected $431.70 from pot
*** SUMMARY ***
Total pot $434.70 | Rake $3
Board [3c As 7c Ac 8c]
Seat 1: MrteddyKGB folded before Flop (didn't bet)
Seat 2: Devriesimo showed [8h 8s] and won ($431.70) with a full house, Eights full of Aces
Seat 3: DaveMacD folded before Flop
Seat 4: Jager244 (button) mucked [Qd Qc]
Seat 5: akman111 (small blind) folded before Flop
Seat 6: dolla$time (big blind) folded before Flop


I had a good 2p2 regular tell me today that he thought I was just pwning 200nl. He even has me as a big winner in his DB and I just started seeing him in July, I think hes on crack. It is my one year anniversary since I started to play poker seriously. My first 10 months were all winners, and I supproted myself on poker. The last 2 months have been awful, and I think if this keeps I will be broke well before October. I now think I suck at poker, there is no other explaination. I lost 50 BI's in July. 135k hands and lost 10k. I have watched 15 or so CR videos. I play pretty close to how those guys play, in fact very close to some of them. I make +EV plays, understand odds and position, and read hands with the best of them, yet I am a loser. There is no longer any light at the end of the tunnel, I will just keep playing until I go busto...