Top of a new page, and turning over a new leaf, wooop wooop!

So anyways, as I stated in my previous post, I'm starting a blog to track my weight loss progress. Meanwhile, this one is SUPPOSED to be about me gaining self control, but so far its just 3 pages of rambling and making random updates about the goings on in my life.

That's not really accomplishing any goals now is it?

So, for what would appear to be the first time in this blog, I'm going to actually set out to pull in my emotions and not get so tilted about minor things. To start, I'm getting back into exercising, I'm going to try to eat better (I'm not going to go on a diet, but I'm going to cut out sodas, energy drinks, most of the fast food, etc), and I'm going to try out meditation.

For the meditation, I'm using this awesome link spoon posted in his questions thread. Today is going to be time doing anything like this, so I'm not really expecting much in the way of improvement for a while, since it says in the link that it takes a decent amount of time to see any NOTICEABLE results. Just because you can't notice the differences don't mean they aren't there though, amirite?

Link: Mindfulness in Plain English by Ven. Henepola Gunaratana

In other news (the random ramblings about my irl to dos will continue lol), I am talking to a new lady friend. Kind of a big deal for me since I haven't a relationship lasting longer than the time I meet the girl to the the time I'm zipping up my pants in over a year. So I'm understandably nervous about not fucking it up. Tbh, I don't even know why I'm worried about fucking it up, since we're not even dating yet lol. Nonetheless, we've talked a few times and I'll ask to see if she wants to get together either this weekend or sometime next week since its already Thursday.

So far she seems pretty interested in me, we used to ride the bus together like 5-10 years ago and she just randomly added me on facebook like a week ago. She shot me a message and then we started talking and I ended up getting her number and so now we obv use that to talk. She's sent me texts first so obviously she wants to talk/is interested which is nice since I fucking HATE having to always start the god damn conversation.

Anyways this post is getting fucking huge, so I'm off! Good luck and no tilting!