Self Control

Yeah I wouldn't get too excited about ritalin...

Hey man, Idk why I haven't checked your blog in a while, I guess I haven't looked at anyones. Just wanted to say good luck with getting your life sorted and reaching a happier place and seriously listen to what people say about you being 19 and having all the time in the world to sort everything out and make yourself and the people who care about you happy. You trully have all the fucking time to pwn life. Your notion of "I've let everyone down, I'm a failure" is like flopping a fd + oesd +2 overs and open folding the flop when your villain checks because you currently have J high. Shit you have even more equity than that in life imo.

I know how it feels to get unhealthily attached to your BR and the bad times you've been through pokerwise in the last month are totally familiar to me. Right now I know my mainn priority is working on maximising objective thinking and detatching myself from the exact figure of my roll at any given time. Shit man like it's not even like it's the monetary asepct, It's the fact that it in some way feels like your baby is getting a finger chopped off every time you lose a pot or some shit. I'm a bit stoned just now so full of rediculous metaphor, but yeah.

Also, hit me up for a sweat some time and I'd be happy to have a look at your game and talk poker with you.

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