You definitely understand poker well enough to beat your stakes, and the next couple with ease. Your problem is emotional control and lack of focus.
The one book I would recommend you read is Elements of Poker. But before you try and play better you need to get your life sorted out.
Whatever that means for you.

I think the reason you're frustrated with poker is the same why you are frustrated with life. You set yourself some arbitrary goals, and you missed them. Now the obvious thing to do is to wallow in self hatred and cry yourself to sleep. EZ game.

But really it's nothing an old fashioned blowjob can't fix.













also this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qjO1C...C59B8A&index=1