Stop. You went UA in the Marines. You're 19 and haven't gone to college. It's not that big a deal. I honestly think some structure in your life would be great (which is why I think you going to college would be great). I felt like a failure for the short time my life was going nowhere (remember when I wanted to be a doctor?). Now that I'm back at school and working toward something, I feel 100x better.

That in addition to an IRL bankroll (for everyday living) has helped me get my mind back into poker. I'm still not fully into it but I know as my IRL bankroll grows, I will begin seeing the dollar amount of my bankroll as some sort of score again.

As for you going apeshit in IRC, thank God I wasn't there cuz I woulda snapkicked you in the mouth .

A break is great for poker...but you still have to be productive IRL. Find a good job, look for a good school, find something else you want to learn. Just stay productive!