Dude stop following me around. Your 1 month behind me on everything. Just watch what I do, don't act surprised and 1 month later you'll be fine.

Sorry about the roll. I know what that kind of devastation feels like. You need (I need) to learn from the last time and this time to protect ourselves from the inevitable times that you will drop 4, 5, 6 buy ins at a stake we tried so hard to get to. Stop thinking about the losing, as hard as it is, think about the long term future of your game, your roll and where you want to be when poker is back in full swing. Settle in and position yourself for another run. You bottomed out at $300 the first time. You bottomed out at $1700 this time, and next time it'll be $5K, then $10K. Ride the wave, enjoy the ride. Think about everything you've told every other beginner here. Shit happens, get used to it.

By the way. Let the Op die. Start anew. New thread, new life, new attitude. Post some stats and take a break.