the fear is gone. i grinded a ton over the holidays, all of it on a cpy away from home so no HEM and no garphs. unfortunately i ran pretty terribly overall, ended up at something like +250$ over a bunch of hands at NL and PLO 100 but i feel like i crossed a hurdly regarding volume, tilt and willingness to play. hopefully this carries over into the new year and i can finally start posting some hands when i get back home to the grind.