I don't feel like I tilt. I'm numb to the beats when they actually happen, just paranoid when I click "cashier" afterward. Tbh, I semi-want to get banned but there are some players I'd lose touch with and some other stuff I don't want to miss out on.
I'm not really sure what else to post? I guess not post at all? I mean, if I have tons of trouble on a hand I'll post it to higher stakes guys on AIM and they'll say "std" most of the time. I mean this heavily affects me overall because having a real job right now would ruin a lot of things for me. I'm now shaking at the thought of having to withdraw a little soon.
As for the stake. Yeah you are right probably. But I have had successful stakes (2 for 2) when I was a lot worse of a player. I have made over $10k. Who knows, maybe I am getting worse somehow but very doubtful when I am investing in a lot of private coaching.
