I made a guess i was up just short of 5k for the month, so i sat down to grind the last bit. got coolered a few times at the start but won the cash back, then lost a couple of stacks and went on tilt and went from +100 to -900 for the night. I was so angry at myself for playing like a tilted monkey and even worse for refusing to stop.

uh. the money doesn't bother me, tbh it's more about the dent in the graph and the reduced wr when i look at pt, if i had just lost the 5buyins to just beats/coolers I wouldn't have cared that much tbh, but the fact that i just lit the $$$ on fire is what pisses me off.

i've never had a problem with tilt before so i don't know why i'm losing so much to it all of a suddenly, pretty sure i said this earlier in the thread but it's definite for now, that's the last time that's gonna happed, I'm gonna at least take a break when i start playing so poorly.

anyway, looking at my stats I made about 4k for the month, I'm a bit disappointed really, it should be a lot more.

I think, just playing solid nothing spectacular, i can beat 200nl for about 6.5/100, of course that's without tilt/me playing suboptimally, which is what killed me this month.



so the goal for january is 10k incl rb.

I made 2.5k one of the weeks this month just by solid grinding and running at expectation, so i'm gonna try really hard this month to play good focused poker, (and improve a ton in loads of areas) for about 35+k hands at about 6/7bbs. certainly if i don't win at least 6/7k I'll be pissed.