Confession:

I'm stuck 4 buyins over 20k hands at 25nl.

I have played poorly. I take things too far with marginal hands. I override pot control when I shouldn't. My favourite line is 'lol pot odds call'. I don't 3bet enough. I try too hard to get hands like QQ all in preflop vs nits. I don't look for good spots to steal, I just somehow expect them to pop out at me. I also overestimate or underestimate ranges due to being emotionally attached to pots. For example: 'But I have a set/pair/flush (etc) he should be bluffing some of the time...'

But the good news is, all this is going to change, starting now.

I've deleted the thing in PokerTracker which shows my winnings. All I can see are my stats - all I can see are things I need to work on.

I've let my game slip. Too many curiosity calls, too many unplanned hands. It's time to start playing my best, and make well informed objective decisions.

To help make such decisions, I'm going to be studying alot away from the table. Things are actually clicking, but whenever I sit down to play I seem to forget what I'm doing. I won't settle for that anymore, I'm going to prepare myself to play solid poker, and I'm not going to let anything get in my way.

This operation is destined to get back on pace, and I'm going to do my best to make it happen.