Well I'm taking two days off from poker to party. DJing tomorrow night, probably in ridiculous fancy dress, so I'll post pics for your amusement when they emerge on fb.

The walking part of my plan... haven't been doing two miles a day like I hoped, but I've been out of the house daily and feeling better for it. Will be out in the fresh air this evening and all day tomorrow, looking forward to that.

Also trying to eat better... being single it's just too easy to eat crap, but I've stopped getting takeaways because a) it's expensive, and b) it's not healthy, I think both of these aspects are effecting my mood and focus.

Another plan... get fucking laid. I'm much less lazy when there's a lady in my life, I wash more, get out more, I'll play and study less poker of course but maybe I suffer from overload as I have nothing better to do with my time, so perhaps that's a good thing too.

And one more thing I really want in my life... a dog.

I think my whole life needs an overhaul, not just my poker. If IRL doesn't suck, then my mental well being will dramatically improve. It got to the point where poker was my escape, it was my ticket to bigger and better things. Putting that much pressure on myself to perform is obviously gonna have a negative effect on my ability to deal with tilt.

Well I already feel better for being honest with myself about what it's gonna take to succeed.