You might be a playa, but you whine an awful lot. You obviously don't understand as much as you think if you continually say stuff like:

Big pockdet pairs are my gat damned leak. They wont hold up.
Not even you multitablers playeing thousands of hands a day go through this many.
I don't think I am even 50/50. Whatever my opponent needs. Screw it. Destined to grind.
Cursing a bad play on your part is one thing, and it's something I can see feeling bad about, but cursing "bad luck" (which isn't bad luck.. It simple odds) isn't going to get you anywhere.