I gotta admit when I woke up the first day of the grind I felt kinda sick to my stomach due to this thought: 'what the hell did I just get myself into'..

I made the thread at like 3am the night before, then once I was awake I realized I had a shit load of work to do - and as usual when I have a shit load of work to do - I finish it asap.

I had quite a good run the first day, but as the week went on I became more fatigued and frustrated when I began running really bad. I ended up downswining pretty hard near the end and I had a difficult time handling the variance at 50nl since I'm still used to only losing $50 here and there, rather than a few hundred. So my worrying mindset led to some spew, but I managed to grind back a bit near the end. I spent 40 hours playing in 5 days which is probably at least twice my normal weekly volume.

In August I am going to be focusing alot on fixing some leaks so I can get on my way at 50nl. My hugest leak ever is self-leveling, as it has been since day 1. Dunno what I'm going to do about that but we'll see. I'll be grinding some 25nl for awhile to keep track of a few things I'm working on, then I'll take it from there.