i can t take this.

trying to fight through this but not sure i can.

more from today :

***** Hand History for Game 2190677894 ***** (Boss)
$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, May 22, 08:39:45 ET 2010
Table Bad Beat TH 182 (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Seat 1: skull80 ( $36.90 USD )
Seat 2: HERO ( $105.00 USD )
Seat 3: V.N. ( $166.55 USD )
Seat 4: muahaha! ( $261.99 USD )
Seat 5: ladydonk ( $86.31 USD )
Seat 6: bobs93 ( $99.50 USD )
skull80 posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
HERO posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
V.N. folds
muahaha! folds
ladydonk raises [$3.50 USD]
bobs93 folds
skull80 calls [$3.00 USD]
HERO calls [$2.50 USD]
** Dealing Flop **
skull80 checks
HERO checks
ladydonk bets [$7.87 USD]
skull80 folds
HERO raises [$27.55 USD]
ladydonk raises [$74.94 USD]
HERO calls [$55.26 USD]
** Dealing Turn **
** Dealing River **
ladydonk shows
ladydonk wins $172.62 USD from main pot

i decide to make a questionable play OOP vs a guy who has been 3 betting me a ton:

***** Hand History for Game 2190737619 ***** (Boss)
$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, May 22, 09:29:14 ET 2010
Table Bad Beat TH 175 (Real Money)
Seat 5 is the button
Seat 1: Zacsker ( $80.77 USD )
Seat 2: john1992 ( $104.50 USD )
Seat 3: HERO ( $100.00 USD )
Seat 4: S7h7a7man ( $310.25 USD )
Seat 5: oleeejorma ( $50.00 USD )
Seat 6: KickYourAc ( $92.50 USD )
Zacsker posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
KickYourAc posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
john1992 raises [$3.50 USD]
HERO calls [$3.50 USD]
S7h7a7man raises [$15.50 USD]
oleeejorma folds
KickYourAc folds
Zacsker folds
john1992 folds
HERO calls [$12.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop **
HERO checks
S7h7a7man bets [$17.00 USD]
HERO calls [$17.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn **
HERO bets [$67.50 USD]
S7h7a7man calls [$67.50 USD]
** Dealing River **
HERO shows
S7h7a7man shows
S7h7a7man wins $201.50 USD from main pot


I make a big shove where this nit is folding everything less than AK after the hand plays out like this :

***** Hand History for Game 2190716817 ***** (Boss)
$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, May 22, 09:12:53 ET 2010
Table Bad Beat TH 42 (Real Money)
Seat 6 is the button
Seat 1: Cecilia85 ( $153.00 USD )
Seat 2: john1992 ( $134.20 USD )
Seat 3: Trucker2k ( $101.45 USD )
Seat 4: nysser ( $105.92 USD )
Seat 5: HERO ( $264.60 USD )
Seat 6: vasilis19 ( $50.00 USD )
Trucker2k posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
john1992 posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
vasilis19 posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
nysser calls [$1.00 USD]
HERO raises [$5.50 USD]
vasilis19 folds
Cecilia85 calls [$5.50 USD]
john1992 raises [$17.50 USD]
Trucker2k folds
nysser folds
HERO calls [$12.50 USD]
Cecilia85 folds
** Dealing Flop **
john1992 checks
HERO checks
** Dealing Turn **
john1992 checks
HERO bets [$23.00 USD]
john1992 calls [$23.00 USD]
** Dealing River **
john1992 checks
HERO bets [$223.60 USD]
john1992 calls [$93.20 USD]
HERO wins $130.40 USD
john1992 shows
HERO shows
john1992 wins $273.40 USD from main pot


A donk raises when the perfect card for his spewy tendencies hits the riv for him to bluff a missed draw (I mean, think about the equity he had on the flop... seriously... and for the board to comme off like this etc etc FUCK ME) :

***** Hand History for Game 2190681444 ***** (Boss)
$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, May 22, 08:42:54 ET 2010
Table Bad Beat TH 175 (Real Money)
Seat 1 is the button
Seat 1: muahaha! ( $86.20 USD )
Seat 3: HERO ( $123.85 USD )
Seat 4: S7h7a7man ( $100.00 USD )
Seat 5: ALASKA^ ( $150.64 USD )
Seat 6: mrxxxxx ( $123.45 USD )
S7h7a7man posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
HERO posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
ALASKA^ calls [$1.00 USD]
mrxxxxx folds
muahaha! folds
HERO calls [$0.50 USD]
S7h7a7man checks
** Dealing Flop **
HERO bets [$3.00 USD]
S7h7a7man folds
ALASKA^ calls [$3.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn **
HERO bets [$6.75 USD]
ALASKA^ calls [$6.75 USD]
** Dealing River **
HERO bets [$22.50 USD]
ALASKA^ raises [$51.00 USD]
HERO calls [$28.50 USD]
ALASKA^ shows
ALASKA^ wins $121.00 USD from main pot

Value-shoving the turn :

***** Hand History for Game 2190279745 ***** (Boss)
$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Saturday, May 22, 03:49:33 ET 2010
Table Table TH 7917 (Real Money)
Seat 3 is the button
Seat 2: Philcart ( $29.62 USD )
Seat 3: HERO ( $114.30 USD )
Seat 4: ski2die ( $115.70 USD )
Seat 5: Vfhbz ( $101.04 USD )
Seat 6: mitricboss ( $174.68 USD )
Vfhbz posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
ski2die posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
mitricboss folds
Philcart folds
HERO raises [$3.50 USD]
ski2die folds
Vfhbz raises [$10.00 USD]
HERO calls [$7.50 USD]
** Dealing Flop **
Vfhbz bets [$15.00 USD]
HERO calls [$15.00 USD]
** Dealing Turn **
Vfhbz bets [$25.00 USD]
HERO raises [$88.30 USD]
Vfhbz calls [$50.04 USD]
HERO wins $13.26 USD
** Dealing River **
HERO shows
Vfhbz shows
Vfhbz wins $199.58 USD from main pot


I feel like such a fucking pussy, i wanna tear my eyes out. blahblahblahblah FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK - 11 buyins in 1.4k hands today. are you fucking serious?