Went against all of my rules today, playing some pretty sloppy poker at nl200 when I felt tired. Lost 6 buyins in just over 1.2k hands. Kinda wanna throw up.

I would much prefer to lose this $ playing focussed poker at nl400 but... bleh.

My biggest leak is not wanting to challenge myself and risk losing significant money.

I felt great and played great after playing a few short sessions at nl400 with somewhat scared money. I played with tremendous focus and this carried over even when I played down at nl200.

After missing a few days because of being sick, I pussed out and played nl200 on hardly any sleep. I should have either had some coffe and forced myself to play at a level that scares me, played super low-stakes if all i wanted was to have fun, or not played at all.

Hopefully I can learn from this. The money flying around at nl200 doesn't scare me at all. For whatever reason losing a buy in just makes me want to play looser and outplay ppl post flop, which is what gives me a kick.

If that's how I'm going to approach things, I might as well just play nl25, see every flop, and have fun.

I can't say I played horribly or anything, but there were a few things that I wouldn't have done out of fear at nl400 that ended up costing me pretty big at nl200.

Of course, it didn't help to win less than 40% of showdowns and there were a few shitty hands like these two where I don't mind my play at all :

-Hmmm…

Seat 3: HERO ( $492.75 USD )
Seat 2: AL18AL ( $64.35 USD )
Seat 5: Doeks111 ( $210.19 USD )
Seat 4: Verichip ( $263.50 USD )
Seat 1: bakkki1 ( $202 USD )
Seat 6: youngr50 ( $200 USD )
Doeks111 posts small blind [$1 USD].
bakkki1 is sitting out
AL18AL posts big blind [$2 USD].

** Dealing down cards **

Dealt to HERO

bakkki1 has left the table.
HERO raises [$7 USD]
Verichip folds.
Doeks111 calls [$6 USD]
AL18AL folds.

** Dealing Flop **

Doeks111 bets [$11 USD]
HERO raises [$41 USD]
Doeks111 calls [$30 USD]

** Dealing Turn **

Doeks111 bets [$62 USD]
HERO is all-In.
Doeks111 is all-In.

** Dealing River **

Doeks111 shows a pair of Nines.
HERO shows high card Ace.
The time at which hand ended:Oct 14 2007 12:43 ET
HERO wins $282.56 USD from side pot #1 with high card, Ace.
Doeks111 wins $419.88 USD from the main pot with a pair of Nines.


-Very nice call dood. Felt like he was slightly stronger but would lay it down. If he bet planning to call a push his play is sick :

Seat 4: u4815162342 ( $203.85 USD )
Seat 5: HERO ( $210.60 USD )
Seat 6: judecolman ( $54.49 USD )
Seat 1: chrisavoc ( $144 USD )
Seat 3: roesti49 ( $172.56 USD )
Seat 2: vesselACE ( $200 USD )
u4815162342 posts small blind [$1 USD].
HERO posts big blind [$2 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
chrisavoc folds.
vesselACE folds.
roesti49 calls [$2 USD]
u4815162342 raises [$12 USD]
HERO calls [$11 USD]
roesti49 calls [$11 USD]
** Dealing Flop **
u4815162342 bets [$22 USD]
HERO calls [$22 USD]
roesti49 folds.
** Dealing Turn **
u4815162342 checks.
HERO checks.
** Dealing River **
u4815162342 bets [$44 USD]
HERO is all-In.
u4815162342 is all-In.
u4815162342 shows two pairs, Queens and Eights.
HERO shows a pair of Queens.
HERO wins $6.75 USD from side pot #1 with a pair of Queens.
u4815162342 wins $418.70 USD from the main pot with two pairs, Queens and Eights.

Also shitty rivers made things fun :

UTG Villain seemed tight pre but very aggro and good at hand reading postflop. I don’t really care about the overcaller; if he hits his flush, he hits his flush.

Seat 3: HERO ( $225.96 USD )
Seat 1: schoolWTF ( $272.65 USD )
Seat 5: imprimante ( $262.50 USD )
Seat 6: ModanoMVP ( $42.35 USD )
Seat 4: Great__Ape ( $191 USD )
Seat 2: stoney_mahon ( $200 USD )
imprimante posts small blind [$1 USD].
ModanoMVP posts big blind [$2 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to HERO
schoolWTF raises [$8 USD]
HERO calls [$8 USD]
Great__Ape calls [$8 USD]
imprimante folds.
ModanoMVP folds.

** Dealing Flop **

schoolWTF bets [$20 USD]
HERO calls [$20 USD]
Great__Ape calls [$20 USD]

** Dealing Turn **

schoolWTF checks.
HERO bets [$41 USD]
Great__Ape calls [$41 USD]
schoolWTF calls [$41 USD]

** Dealing River **

schoolWTF is all-In.
HERO folds.
Great__Ape is all-In.
schoolWTF shows a flush, Ace high.
Great__Ape doesn't show a flush, Queen high.
The time at which hand ended:Oct 14 2007 13:26 ET
schoolWTF wins $81.65 USD from side pot #1 with a flush, Ace high.
schoolWTF wins $451.50 USD from the main pot with a flush, Ace high.

Bleh bleh bleh. Back to nl400.