Im going through such a bad patch as a player right now its crazy. Its not variance, its me. Why do i want to make plays when i know im beat, Why do i seem to want to put my chips in way behind knowing it hurts my BR and force me to drop in stakes.

I was up around +$300 today but ended up down 550 i think. PT is all fucked up when importing and when i reset Prima DB it deleted all of todays HHs so i have zero stats. PT should of been importing them fuck sake.

I gotta be done with 200NL now, Im just making plays that i know are hurting me so so much. I dont understand WTF/why imm doing them. Some need to gamble?? Thinking this is playing back at me when i hold KK on 236 FD board when he is a fucking nit?? i started todays session so well and was in a good mood and really playing well but then it hits me a i dont wanna lay shit down again.

I gotta build back my roll form 100NL or regain composure, not confidence. PLus my roll is all over different sites and neteller are fucking tards bcoz they say they cannot contact me by phone. They say me phone rings but i dont pick up, but my phone doesnt ring. load of fucking balls.