So I buy-in at my usual $5.. (ok no flames about that now plz) Creep my way up to $9. I'm pretty happy about myself here, adding 80%. But then I was thinking, damn, I never even once got a good hand preflop. So I leeched these winnings with pretty crappy hands.

Just as I thought this, I got AK. Ok, not the best hand in the world, I vastly prefer the higher pps, but atleast it's a hand I can raise with for a change. Throw 50cents, usually good for 1-2 callers. The whole table joins in. Wtf. Flop is all low cards. Minimal raises all round, which, together with the huge size of the pot, justify me going for my 6 outs. In the end the pot is taken by A7-guy going hitting pair of 7s. Hmf. Next hand I get AJ. Ok, not a winner, but in 6max already a pretty good one. another raise, get 2 callers now. KJx on the flop, I c-bet, get reraised.. and like a DONK I call it. A microsecond later I'm thinking.. bloody hell, what did you do that for? Big raise on the turn and I fold instantly. (guy had KJ) So now I'm down to $4.90. After my "good hands".

Irony.. maybe, but I think in part what might have caused me to throw needless money away there, is the "expectation" to make money off of a playable hand. A very dangerous thing. A leak even. A better hand gives you better odds than a weaker hands.. but to think it has to pay off is donk-play! Ok, I do expect AA and KK to pay off in the vast majority of times, but they're the REAL killer hands ofcourse.

Epilogue:
So it continues, I get a suited connector, hop in there (on the sb I think) with the rest of the table, chase my flush draw with nice odds, it hits and I'm up to $7.

So now I'm thinking, man, who freaking needs a good preflop hand lol. Ok, it's not rational ofcourse, stay focussed on the odds instead of the results jack! Good I said that to myself, cuz right after I got QJs, got in the middle of 3-way brawl and took the pot with yet another flush. Cashed out with $17.