Anyone that's read any of my posts here probably considers me a bad-attitude whining douche bag. Hopefully, those days are behind me!

My goal for the summer was to just push playing poker to the bag of my mind, don't even consider it. Instead, I spent the summer reading a few books and "changing" myself. To stop playing like an aggressive maniac with no self control or discipline. To stop getting riled up when my PF raises with AA get folded around. To start playing solid poker.

Well, last night PP credited my account with $40 for not "playing in awhile." I had no money in any of my poker accounts, which is another reason I stopped playing. I cancelled my bank account out and just worked the summer, saving up money for my Bonus Whoring journey I'm gonna go on in September, but with $40 to lpay around with I decided to give it a go.

I've only got a few hours in at the tables so far, but I'm happy. I don't care when my preflop raises with JJ-AA get folded around. "I'll get 'em next time" is what I tell myself. I don't get mad at only winning a small pot when I thought I should have won more. "A win is a win." I'm playing with discipline. I'm thinking more about the decisions I'm making. I'm tightening up my preflop selection. And most of all, I feel like I'm making good decisions overall! I had a few tough decisions in the past 24 hours, and I've come out on top on all but 1 of them.

Another big difference I think is, I'm only playing full tables now. I used to play exclusively shorthanded. I hated playing 10 person ring games live at school and loved playing shorthanded, but I think online I might like full tables better. I'm gonna take this all in stride and realize I'm going to hit some bumps. But I think I really took a step forward this time. I've doubled the $40 to $80. I really don't care about "winning money" right now. I just want to play consistent and build the BR up to a respectable amount so when variance hits, I can take the hit. Catching myself when I'm on tilt is what I really have to watch out for. Hasn't happened yet, but I just gotta stay alert.

Damn it feels good to be a gangsta.