I've been resisting crying out about my downturn, but this day has been too much and I need some counselling. Excuses if it's all been heard before, because it has, but I just need a bit of release.

Some of you will know that I've had a very successful road from $2 NL to $10 NL and a few short weeks ago I pushed into the $25 NL range and had my 'roll up to around 580 bucks.

That went badly after a few days, and at around 500 bucks I moved back down to $10 NL. Now, for the last five or six thousand hands, not much has been happening. I keep grinding away and win a little here and there but lose it all in one fell swoop, more or less staying even.

Today, the crash came, however. I lost 40 bucks today over two sessions. The thing was, I was getting good cards. I didn't go out with crap. I wasn't on tilt. I just got setted and straighted and destacked three and a bit times in the process.

Before tonight, though, I just couldn't win any big pots. I think about two destackings in the five or six (plus another one thousand beomg processed in PT as I type) thousand hands. But I would always get destacked. It started to prey on my psyche that.

Sure some of them were my stupid fault, but not all. Not by a long shot.

I'm really depressed about all this. I'm getting superstitious even. It seems that my move to the UK has brought me bad luck. Since I've been here, everything has been going downhill with my results.

As much as some guys here will hate when I say this, trying to be more aggressive has had nothing but disasterous consequences for me. I cannot get past it. Every time I raise and get callers, now I'm thinking "Oh, he's got a set, or a straight." I'm losing my confidence, my spirit, my mind.

I still like playing, dont' get me wrong, but I don't know what is happening. I've had a bad run before of about 3,000 hands, but this is now getting into the upper half of 10,000 hands and the money loss is getting significant, though I'm still well up on my 150 buck starting 'roll.

Is this just a really bad run? Am I trying to hard? Should I change my game, go back to limit for a while? I don't know, but I am definitely in a spiral now.

Words of solace or a virutal kick in the ass would be welcome.

I'm done now.

Jigs