the answer for me is UNTIL I FEEL MY MIND AND GAME ARE RIGHT, and I can play the hand in front of me, not my memories of previous beats, hopes and dreams, etc. Just the hand in front of me.

Here's a tool that works if you know what you're doing wrong but keep doing it anyway. Put it into a declarative statement and write it down 100 times. Not 99. 100 all at one time. I do it. Here are two examples where I saw issues and made up a fix and wrote it out:

I will not call large bets when i now my Good Hands are beat.

Careful play is not weak.

Your's will obviously be different. But you have to WORK YOUR SOLUTION, not just take time off and hope that the world becomes a better place.