I've only been playing for 9 months, low buy in tourneys only. At first I had some beginners luck, but variance seems to have been my enemy for months with only the odd respite. it seems like the more I read on poker the worse my results. I've had so many bad beats that I came to conclude that I am the world's unluckiest person. Been tracking how many times I've lost hands that I have had a statistical 88 - 92 percent chance of winning. Ove the past month I've lost about 56% of them. I've raised 5 and even 10x BB with big pairs and been called by crap that connects. When I fold I would make my hand when I chase I never do.

Yet I never seem to be able to do the same in return. Also it seems when I have the nuts, nobody else a decent hand so i don't get paid off. Yet when I have almost the nuts, some one has it. Set over set, boat over boat, etc. Usually I've been player uber tight (Helmuth's top 10), adding other pairs, suited connectors and suited aces from late position. But then I tilt and play any crap because I've been rivered by any crap. But I never get the fun of winning with crap. Or I became a calling station after being bluffed and shown the cards.

My confidence is gone and my game is gone. I'm afraid to raise , when I'm in I either fold when i shouldn't or cling to any piece of the flop I get cause I so desperately want to win a hand and feel they are bullying me. I bluff at the wrong times and totally misread everbody at the table.

I've read the psych of losing and the downward spiral. But even with time outs I can't seem to get the confidence and my game together. I go in expecting to lose. I feel like I have absolutely no skill despite my readings and even less luck.

Its gotten so bad that I feel like the plankton the fish feed on and it seems like the height of ambition is to gecome as good as the fish. I feel like I am the abslote worse poker player on earth.

Have any of you been in this pit and how did you get out?

Thanks
Tim