There is a very simple solution to your problem:


Do you know what it is ? I don't

err what

oh yea

I believe you are not as successful at playing poker as you think you are. Very successful poker players buy houses not rent apartments.
They don't blow their wad on an xbox and rent because those items are chump change and would barely put a divet in their cash flow.
So I think you should find your hope and passion in knowing that you are still playing at the chump change level and have a lot of room for improvement.