Aaaah just now was pretty exciting. Got sucked out on a $56 pot by this calling station donk with EXTREME luck. At one point he was sitting at $126 and he seriously couldn't play worth shit. Then I started, like a total idiot, to focus on getting my money back from him, obsess over it is probably a better word, but the cards didn't come.. and I kept seeing him pat off large $$ with air hands to everyone but me. (come to think of it.. the money I lost was actually money I had taken from the donk a bit earlier, lol) So I kept rebuying, but the losses started to accumulate and actually offset my double-up at the other table. BR down to $150. When my head started to hurt from aggravation, I started to realize.. "Jack, man.. you can't FORCE the cards. It's better to just keep playing your game.. there are more donks like this, they come a dime a dozen, stop focussing so much on this one! Just do the right thing and in the long run it'll all be good. That's how it always goes, so stay calm now." So that did calm me down a little and I stopped my maniacal chase to get his dough.

Then at the very end I got into this one show-off vs the donk, $40 pot, and I said to myself "if I lose this it's back to 10NL". I had KK on a board with an A and two 5s. I called his big river raise.. and he had nothing! After that it all started to go better again.. BR now up to a square $200 or 10 buy-ins.

No, see.. if I had played according to the proper rules instead of my own, I would have missed all this fun and excitement haha