What I don't understand is how you can go through 3 months of sucking without catching it and adjusting. I'm not saying this to offend.. just that, after a week tops you can see that there's a problem no? I go through stuff you describe here, but it's a matter of days, not months..

Btw I'd definately move down, to 50NL or maybe even 25NL and calmly find your focus again. It's not good when you're scared..