Originally Posted by
Chelle
Why you so awesome? I want to hug you.
March 2013 I saw a 'group shoot' thing on Facebook that one of my friends was taking part of, and she's been modeling for years - so I decided to go to it, and met several different photographers and models. It was just a by-chance thing. Then in July I was asked if I wanted to model at a local huge car show full of classic cars by the photographer that did the Red Riding Hood shoot. It's all by chance meeting. I had wanted to try my hand at it since I was a teen, but never thought I could do it, and Justin being a positive re-enforcement made me feel better about it. I've got a lot to learn still, but it's a lot of fun. It's another way, to me, to create art. My broken doll shoot, I literally worked on my hair and makeup for about 2 or 3 hours, and maybe had 10-15 minutes worth of shooting. Most of those pictures are also from the photographer that did the Red Hiding Hood shoot. He's an awesome dude that is actually in Canada right now, and is coming back down in June/July to move the rest of the family/stuff up there. Justin helped him with holding the lighting stuff, angling things certain ways. Brian, the photographer, has stayed in contact with me through all this, and has been checking in on me. My profile picture on FB was taken at the Car show by another photographer that his day job he's the senior photographer for a local large news station. These guys spend way more money on camera stuff than I'd ever dreamed of spending. We were actually invited to a photographer/model Halloween party by a dude that makes bank like crazy just doing the photographer thing, and lol, he bought everyone a drink, and made Justin try a shot of that liquor called 'The Kracken' or whatever.
Idk man, meeting a lot of these people is just by me putting myself out in the universe and pushing myself. I was supposed to do a shoot for a calender, and a shoot for a boudoir freak show type of thing, but calender was canceled due to the organization and the woman that was doing it to raise money went their separate ways, and the boudoir shoot I sill want to do, but my moving around abilities is about a 4 on a scale of 0-10, 10 being I can move easily and bend like a pretzel. Before the accident I was at like 9.5, in order to do the shoot I'd have to at least be a 6-7.
It's fucking crazy how so many things have just COMPLETELY changed. I was actually planning on volunteering at a local children's home, that was literally 3 miles away from our apartment. He was going to get a bike, so we'd be able to go bike riding at the park that was within a mile of our apartment. Just ugh, so many things where I just have to release and understand will not happen like we had planned.
Hopefully I'm getting my license in June, after not being able to drive since 2008. I am happy about that, but also scared. Shit, I'm scared of life in general now, but I just do it anyway. My Mom and Dad are impressed, but I feel like a piece of shit 26 year old that is living back with her parents and has nothing to show for herself besides what little mental stability I have.