Originally Posted by kmind
I immediately think of posting here when I hit a shitload of bad luck in a short span. Not good.
I hate the feeling in my stomach of losing money that means shit when I played my hand perfectly while they play theirs so poorly. I hate the fact of moving down limits coming back into my mind. I hate that I know I'll be right back at the tables as soon as I can when I shouldn't, and knowing I will be away when I should be grinding. I hate the fact I don't have the discipline or attention span to finish learning something from a vid/strat post or some shit. I hate writing this. I hate knowing someone will reply. I hate knowing they won't reply after my last sentence. I hate that people most likely think I just whine. I hate that I only whine. I hate the fact that I have started over, reincorporated a style that worked for me in the past, but it's not netting me money because of running bad. I hate that I can't go 3 days the past 4 months without getting bad beat heavily in a short session. I hate that I can't get online more and talk more about poker. I hate school and knowing I have no job and I keep withdrawling to help fund my life as opposed to getting a parttime job. I hate that I feel I know a shitload more than I did back when I first started beating 50nl/100nl yet I am doing a lot worse now.
I love poker.