irrational physical response to betting
I've noticed that I'm experiencing physical reactions when I'm going all in. Heart beat rises and blood pressure rises etc. Ok , there are all the biological explanations regarding adrenalin etc.What is irrational is that I'm playing 5NL. The actual monetary value is nothing in comparison to ordinary everyday purchases in a shop, There are poker mags here in the uk for roughly that price but the same reactions don't occur when i hand over my money.
I've never really experienced this in the two years I've been playing up until now , but that was mainly freerolls, but even so some of them that I won or placed highy in carried far bigger cash values associated with the prizes I was playing for than the value of the all in.
Its not that its just something thats started now and happening across the board. In the FTR freeroll at the weekend I was fine especially when it came to bubble play with essentially a cash value 3 times a 5NL pot at stake .Same when it was playing once we'd cashed, I don't know whether "chin" or "KB coolman" noticed whether I was playing scared or weird around the bubble and later stages. I was cautious on the bubble but that comes from being the short stack but I still got my money in when I had to with no physical effects.
I'm not sure whether it's down to cash games still being new to me or whether I've had such a lot experience in tourney play that I'm used to it whereas cash game is still new to me. One possible cause is that I'm considering my bankroll as my money being risked and putting more pressure on myself as my bankroll is my bankroll and as i promised my wife and mother in law when i started playing poker that I wouldn't be depositing any of my own money on sites , my roll has genuinely been built up from zero via freerolls.
Another possible reason is that for some reason I think I'm putting my money in good , but I seem to end up losing when opponent hit their 1,2, and 4 outers with only limited success in all ins and therefore causing a bit of anxiety to see what the result is going to be. Last night I had AA against JJ and all in after a 29T flop and he hit the J on turn. The other one was a short stacker who went all in on his first hand pre flop , I called it with QQ and he had ATs and got a T on the flop and another T on the river.
Its not necessarily the fact that I'm "gambling" with cash as I can quite happily put the same amounts on a lottery ticket. Does anyone else notice this happening to them when they start playing cash , and does it improve with experience.