Well, this month is going pretty well and I have been playing a lot of poker the past few days because my gf isn't here. I decided to start writing because I am getting a way from some of my good habits and I am starting to lose because of this. I have to admit I am running very poorly lately (only past 2 days which was like 3k hands or so). The bad thing is that I am actually hitting sets on the flop a HUGE amount. They are not getting paid. These are as the PFC. Anyways, I am missing flops hard as the PFR and it's getting to me as everyone is betting me off my hands. Seems like every time I have a JJ or TT type hand an A will hit on the flop and villain will have it. AK isn't hitting many flops and AA lost to J6 on a J94 board allin on the flop vs. a short stack then vs. the same guy I lost with AK vs. his A6 on a AJ92 board, money went on the turn and he spiked his two pair on the river. That's stuff out of my control. It really questions me though. It's like I'm at that time where my cbet bluffs are getting called/raised and my nut hands are causing folds. I think 75% of this is variance BUT I should be picking my spots better.

I haven't gotten a check from June 9th which is pissing me off because I need for the beach when I leave the 26th and I move out after that too so it will be hard to get it if they do actually send it. This is stressing me out because I'm like literally broke. I'm trying to ask my dad for a quick loan and I just ship him the check once it does finally arrive but he's paranoid my money is frozen and likely won't do it . He also has been urging me to take off all my money now because of this stuff but I explained to him this website and the people I talk(ed) to daily and how they knew more about this stuff than him and everything is fine.

I had a going away party last night. It was a 50's theme and it went ok. Not too many people I guess because of summer (I live away from most of my friends in the summer) but it was fun. My friend got ridiculously wasted and started chucking things off the balcony so that was interesting.

I'm about to play a 1k hand session unless I go up or down a lot early. I know I should just play through but the last 2 days are tilting me. I DO feel a lot better than normal and have yet to really tilt tbh. I think I am in control much more. Oh yeah, I was the bubble man in the gauntlet after I bet too little and stacks hit his gutshot . I felt really good about my play for the most part though. I have a new routine, it is waking up, eating breakfast, taking a shower and then grinding. I have never done this as a routine so it will be nice moving back home and doing all this. Also, right before my grindage I look at a few poker strategy articles/videos.