This sounds probably very familiar with a lot of you guys but I need to vent and I need to write this all down. My poker playing suffers big time at the moment and my month holiday away in the US/Mexico can’t come soon enough. So what’s my problem?

I started playing Poker with SNG’s and the occasional low buy-in MTT. I did well and my bankroll was growing; not fast but steadily. However, I was always lured by the cash games as I read that a) cash games are harder to master (the competitive spirit in me took over) and b) more profitable over the long run. Despite dropping a lot of my bankroll at the cash games I got better. When I suffered beats at the cash tables I went back to SNG’s where I did well and bolstered my bankroll again.

Now I come to the point where I suck at both and suddenly I start playing like a scared. When I’m at a cash table and have lost sometimes even only half of my buy-in I start to become depressed and leave. When I play SNG’s or MTT’s and I suffer some bad beat out of the money I start kicking & screaming. The good thing out of this is that I know when I’m on tilt and turn off the computer and do not return until the next day.

So my goal is to build my bankroll again when I get back from holiday, hopefully refreshed and itching to play Poker again. I set my goals at

a) read TOP and NLTP by Sklansky
b) set up a Poker friendly environment at home i.e. no TV, no bong, no wife
c) finish my Titan bonus and move to Bodog with rakeback and bonus
d) bonus whore all major sites
e) build bankroll with ????

I still have to decide whether to play full ring cash tables to build my bankroll or concentrate on my SNG play?

Thanks for reading this. Maybe someone could share his/hers experience of how to build a proper bankroll? Every input is appreciated.