I just realized I made this thread 1 year ago. I've played only 75-80 hours of 1/2 cash over the last year, which is around 2000 hands. That's a pretty lol small sample size. This past year was definitely fail when it came to playing a lot of live cash
It's so crazy how few hands you'll play live when compared with online poker. How long would it take someone to play 2000 hands playing online? A few hours while multitabling?
I like live poker about a million times better than online. I really like the chips, the people, the reads, the tells, the dealers, the lack of multitabling, the lack of programs, the lack of software. I love that I can sit there and be a female and automatically have this ridiculously super tight image for no reason. I love that people freak out when you raise in LP and threaten to push the "next time" but then never do.
I'm going to quit my job in January because I've saved money for long enough and I want to go somewhere to do something cool. I'm thinking about driving cross country and moving out east because I've never been there before and it seems like I should travel while I don't have a career and I don't have a family to take care of. I wish I could say that I think I'm finally going to study poker and actually care about winning at it. I've been playing recreationally for over 4 years and I've made money at it, but I've never really gotten serious and actually tried to study it. I've never done anything to get better at it. I don't know why. I've even tried to play 6 max cash instead of working part time and all I did during those months was spend my savings and not bother with poker.
I don't understand why I don't try to get better. In everything I've ever done and taken seriously, I've always been the best I could be. I'm very competitive and if I care about what I'm doing, I hate not being at or near the top. This has been in everything my entire life, including school and work. Why isn't it this way with me and poker? The only thing I've ever done since learning how to play is join this forum. I don't read books, I don't watch videos, I don't play hands, I don't talk to people about it. Hell, I've owned all the HOH books since the beginning of time and I haven't even read them yet. I've owned Theory of Poker for over a year and I think I've only bothered to read a couple chapters. I'm such a disappointment.
Oops @ the vent. It just came to mind when I thought about how few hands I've played since starting this thread. And I want to think that I'll finally play more and try to get better once I quit my job and have the time. I don't know if I actually will this time though?
There's nothing wrong with just playing for fun, of course. My lack of work when it comes to poker is just something that bothers me for some reason.