Impulse Control, Willpower, Ego

7/75 hours complete!

I played kind of shitty, though. It's due to the fact that I wasn't really looking at the fold to cbet stat of the fish and some of them had a really low fold to cbet and I ended up running bad vs. the fish because I couldn't hit a flop to save my life.

running three buyins under expectation didn't help either:

Full Tilt No-Limit Hold'em, $1.00 BB (3 handed) - Full-Tilt Converter Tool from FlopTurnRiver.com

Button ($38.95)
SB ($100)
Hero (BB) ($199.75)

Preflop: Hero is BB with 7

, 7

1 fold, SB bets $3, Hero calls $2

Flop: ($6) Q

, J

, 7

(2 players)
SB bets $4, Hero calls $4

Turn: ($14) 9

(2 players)
SB checks, Hero bets $12, SB raises to $38, Hero raises to $192.75 (All-In), SB calls $55 (All-In)

River: ($200) Q

(2 players, 2 all-in)

Total pot: $200 | Rake: $1

I didn't feel bad about it while playing because I was still up at the time, but now that I'm down for the session I can go back to the badbeats and whine about them

Would raising flop maybe be better?

OK I just found out my hours measurement was kind of incorrect, only 9.6 hours out of 75 despite playing around 3 hours on the 4th
I should have been using the session tab in the first place to get the exact value

running bad this month, but at least I'm breaking even with RB lol so technically I'm up $125 because of clearing the midyear Bonus

11/75 hours complete!

still can't stack a fish if my life depended on it and getting coolered by FISH trips vs. trips with better kicker

MIDSTAKES, FUCK YEAH
1/2 BITCHES

I took a shot and I'm up 60 bucks after like 40 minutes
updated my operation image, look at my BEE ARE

Note that I was actually running bad at 100NL, but I took a shot anyway because variance doesn't affect my moving up decision

nicely done

So I checked out the new FTP software
I read some 2+2 threads about it and became convinced it was bad

but then I realized I should form my own opinion of it
so I did and became convinced it was bad

Played some today, but I was surprisingly tired and couldn't handle 4 tables that well
ran like shit again though

I think it popped up the window it just didn't set focus on the bet text box. That sucks, and I miss my mods. I actually have to stop for a split second to read the cards because my tables are so small. It wasn't a problem with the hyper-simple ones.

I've been having a bunch of issues with it... my hud is acting up too. It doesn't update as quickly as it used to, etc. It's a good thing I've got so many local games around, cus I'm pretty much just playing enough on FTP to keep iron man up.

ok so I tried CAP NL today for lols and balls
I got coolered and bad beat so hardcore... but then again I bad beat/coolered other people
but floating/3bing regs is not that great because there's no real implied threat so I guess it's my fault for getting it in bad in some spots

I'm scared. I'm scared because it starts to feel like "oh I'll definitely put in more hours LATER" which is usually when I don't put in the hours at all. Right now I really can't play because I'm tired and about to go to sleep. The question becomes: "Can I trust myself?" I want to trust myself. At least it looks like this month I will actually make ironman instead of kind of slacking off half way through.

But it's been half a month, and I've played 21 hours out of the 75 I thought I was going to play. Of course tilt's sucky software is an excuse, because I can always just play on PS.

But I am going to dedicate myself to play 50 hours at least. Then I can be like 3Kish up for the month running normally.

I didn't get as much sleep as I wanted to, so I played a little over two hours

but holy shit can I stop getting bad beat
JJ > AA kind of made me sad, still waiting for a sick heater

ok finally won some moneys back
I've been rebuilding rolls at the 100NL, even though I'm rolled for 1/2 I realized I don't need to push it I can just get back into black at 100NL
there is no big difference between the regs, but there are actually a lot more fish at the 100NL than 1/2

23 hours this month out of the planned 75, but I can still play on stars later in the day if nothing exciting happens
I know I like never meet my goals, but a man can dream!

played 35 hours this month, I'm at least positive at 100NL now
just 1100 dollars to grind back X-(

played 90 minutes on stars and I am up like 4 buyins
man stars is soft it's all these fish in the morning

poker kind of pisses me off, when you run good it's autopilot, when you run bad it's like eating shit, shitting and eating it again

no worries, up this session too!

THE HEADS UP CHALLENGE:
yAAwn issued a challenge of 10K hands at 100NL in two months

not sure how many tables, etc. but it's going to be epic
I'm going to like mass the shit out of heads up in the remaining days of the month

Another part of that is since I am running a business I am not using my primary asset (me) as effectively as I should. I should set a goal that is reasonable to work towards. Maybe 30 hours a week of solid play. But that is just poker-wise. I think I need to start thinking about life-wise and happiness-wise. What do I want to do this year in life? I want to make lots of friends and become more social in general. But right now I am only working on the aspect of life that is poker. I guess playing games like StarCraft and such is not bad, because I feel immersed when I play. I have the so-called "flow" when I'm playing SC. So I guess it's one of those things that make me happy right now. But in terms of overcoming my relative unexperience in social situations, I need to like go outside or something.

*Last edited by iopq on Sun, 26 Jul 2009, 6:33pm; edited 1 time in total*

Just reading Jared Tendler's thread is making me nervous because there are so many people in the thread that have similar problems to mine. Having to realize that I have emotional control issues is like a hit to my self-confidence because it's nice to say "I never tilt" or something even when it's not really true. I think a big part of it is to realize that emotions influence not only your game, but how long you play, if you play every day, etc. At this point I wish I could just go on "chase my losses" tilt and put in like 8 hours. But in reality I think I should think of my money as an investment, like stock instead of real money. My earn should not be monthly where I can post graph in a thread or something, but I should think of my graph as a stock where it goes up and down, but mostly up. So I should only consider my earnings at the end of the year. If it's not real money I am more emotionally detached from it.

Link: http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/26/psychology/ask-mental-game-coach-jared-tendler-521436/

Confidence is a huge part of this game... We have to find a way to have that confidence without lying to ourselves.

Just thinking about direction of my life, what I want, etc. just makes my head spin because it hits topics that I hadn't given too much thought. I just want to get away and lie down because there are so many unknowns. But as I keep going I think a lot of those things that were previously unknowns are becoming revealed. For example, how am I going to afford buying a car/paying for insurance/gas/etc.
I am already paying for a lot of things like food, internet, computer upgrades/accessories so actually I am no longer doubting my ability to pay a small bill every month with poker

but for other things I want from life, there is still that uncertainty because I don't know how to get them, even if I do have money

Jared Tendler says I should invest time into building my poker skill so I'll do just that
I will play sum regs on stars and expect to break even but hopefully build my skill level

played over 3 hours today
I probably should have wrapped it all up into two sessions instead of 3 because the third session I was pretty tired
but I gotta say if I get in 37K hands this month I'd be pretty happy (25 days at like 1400 hands per day) since I'd estimate that to be around a 3K month

ship the 6 buy-in heater
I guess I'm just going to try to book a decent month at 100NL before moving up to 1/2 permanently
unless I run like jesus and ship like 2K in two weeks of course

so today I couldn't make the deadline for the day's at end at tilt poker so I didn't play and did something else

but it is crucial for me to complete my ironman 200 points today so that I can complete a month of ironman playing 100NL the entire time so I can prove that I have the discipline to do it, at least to myself

what I'm going to focus on right now is trying to learn basic skills at 100NL so that I reach the level of unconscious competence
this would mean I can play with less mental effort, and probably put in more hours
I think since last month I've been able to put in slightly more volume, but that's because I can force myself better to play and I've had less problems with starting a session
I think the next step would be to put in more hours than last month, to make that a goal
I think I put in something like 43 hours last month

here's an interesting quote about booking wins:

is it lucky when you run like god in all in ev because you keep getting coolered and have to suck out?

no. fuck AIEV

i just read your suggested reading for the first time, was a sick, sick read.

how are you doing? your sig never updates.

yeah it gave me an amazing boost of motivation. I haven't had one like that in a long time, I can't wait for my next session. If you have any other threads like that, let me know. I've never been to 2+2, so I'm sure I miss a lot of content there.

OK, so now I'm finally going to Vegas as I said all the way back on page 2. So far someone recommended the Venetian. What else should I do whlie I'm there?

hookers and blow imo

http://www.thegunstorelasvegas.com/

You will NOT be disappointed. Sickest thing to do in Vegas. Be sure to get your friends to videotape you shooting an AK47, MP5, and a 12 gauge shotgun (the three guns I shot).

I can afford those things if I move up to 1/2 :O

I played for 6 hours yesterday
It was fucking insane
I played 3 hours, took a break, ate some food, watched tv for an hour and I was still tired
then I started playin again and I got less tired as I kept playing as the food hit my stomach

if I can play 6 hours a day even 5 times a week I'd get like 120 hours a month, or roughly 60K hands
if we estimate 4ptbb/100 that's $4800 per month at 100NL (!)
but if I move up to 1/2 and have success it would probably be moar

When your in Vegas, try to find a host for a casino. They hook you up with stuff if you play at their casino.

4800 a month would be sick, better job than just about anything else.

I actually went to Blizzcon; trip to Vegas was postponed. Then I came back home and paid for it in about two hours. Too bad I have to purchase a continuing month or four days (if I play every single day of this month) for ironman.

hi iopq i read your op occasionally

do you think ironman is worth it? I'm wondering whether I should bother, but the rewards don't seem like much

fffffffuck
I played 4 tables while I was tired and kind of played like shit

now I will punish myself by grinding all of tomorrow

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